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Honestly, im not sure what to do with myself anymore. I’ve lost my bestfriend the one i trusted to a heartbreaking action, she should’ve known better. The one i gave everything too, stayed up late for and worried and wanted more than anything, left. he became another person. idek him anymore. i get it, you both are obviously happier without me right? i hope so. considering i risked my mental state which was already a mess. But this? Ive risked so much for so many people ive lost who i am. Im sick. Im terrified of my future and thanks to 3 special people I’m not going to graduate with my friends, you know what friends are right? guess not.. Well. Im glad you all are so fucking happy. It’s great to know that you left so easily and not think twice about what you were doing to someone who cared so much about you. but im done.. at any point i could easily just break and i’ll be gone forever . what would you seriously do then? would you be proud ?Its hard to wake up and keep myself going. To keep me from giving up quickly. to pretend im not hurt and smile every fucking day pretending that i wasn’t screwed over by so many people in so little time. and hopefully I’ll be gone faster than you could say you’re sorry .
Tbh, I’ve learned that its never your fault when someone all of a sudden leaves without a word, Its them. But they take the time and effort to make themselves believe that Its your fault, so the more they think it the more they do it and then one day they push themselves off the edge and leave with no real reason as to why they did such things ;$ It will hurt like a bitch but keep your head’s up and think about him as much as you’d like but someday , You might have to do the same thing and move on without telling them or having to make yourself believe that its the right thing to do and you wont regret your choice 8)
